When I become a Parent...

I am extremely excited to become a parent. I absolutely love babies, especially my niece and nephew. I'm actually the only girl sibling in my family that hasn't had a baby yet.. not that I'm ready or anything. I still have college to go through. I want to be able to support my child the best I can.


Most people learn to parent by how their parents parenting style is. If some children had bad parenting, usually they learn by that. They want whats best for their children.. but not all people are that way.


When I was a little girl my mom used to drive me and my brother Zach around just to get us to fall asleep. She would play music that was so soothing. That's something that I will probably use with my children also. My mom did so many different things that made her an amazing parent. She was a mother and a father to me. She is my absolute best friend, and I hope to have a daughter as my best friend like she does. 

I never saw my dad when I was a little girl because of his bad decisions. I didn't really "know" my dad until I was about 15 years old when I moved in with him. These past 3 and a half years have been the closest I've ever been to my father. I'm not saying I wish I had a different dad, but I wish he could have been there for me as I was growing up. I hope to choose a guy that will stick with his child and not give up like mine did. I don't wanna make the same mistake as my mom. I will be picky about the"love of my life". I want whats best for me and mostly, my children.

Stress

Stress is overwhelming 

Everyone deals with stress once or another in their lifetime. Some people don't take it as hard and some do take it hard, which can cause even MORE stress on the person. Even I get stressed out. I'm 18 years of age but have been paying my own phone bill and car insurance since I was 16 years old, along with my gas, oil, school supplies, vehicles, etc. I have a step-brother who is now turning 17 and still doesn't have to pay for his own things. Which really irritates me being as his mother doesn't have a job and my dad does. So shouldn't he be the one with a job paying for his own things just like I am? I think that would make it a whole lot easier on our family. A lot less stress too. I stress almost everyday about school, wondering if I'll graduate and make it to college or not. I graduate from school in 5 months and start college in about 8 months. Everything is just happening too fast. There is a way of calming myself down though...

Usually when I'm stressing out about something I'll go drive around and listen to my stereo. It gets my mind off of almost everything I've been stressed about. Another thing I do is cry, depending on how far my stress level has gotten, that is. Crying always feels good to me. Anyways, there's always a way of dealing with stress, reading, walking, crying, sewing, painting, etc. Plenty of different ways of coping with stress. You just have to find the most comfortable one for you!